Bitter at 13
October 2nd 2006 10:09
I happened to stumble upon my 13 year old cousin's blog on the Net, and dare I say that I'm extremely surprised and shocked to read the contents of her blog. I guess it's mainly because her entries are centered on how depressed she was and how life wasn't worth living for anymore, not to forget about how hurt she was after an unrequited love by a crush (and she's only 13!!). Thank God she's not suicidal yet.....!!!
But what really surprised me was how well she has kept all this emotions inside of her, because to the rest of us family members and relatives, she appear to be this sweet, bubbly and caring girl who everyone loves and adore! Is it really the same girl who is feeling bitter towards life and who wished that she did not exist at all in the first place in this world?
Sometimes it pains me to read her blog, because I think I kinda have a distant memory of how traumatic it is to be 13. Teenagehood has just started at that age, and we're all eager and jolly to explore stuffs that us big kids can do that the little ones can't (e.g. hanging out with friends, falling in and out of love and the works). But, these are suppossed to be the best times of our lives.....how did it suddenly appear to be our worst nightmare coming true?!
I wish I had some sort of an answer or solution to this whole scenario, but unfortunately I have no idea why things have to end up that way. One thing i know for sure is that all the events that happened at this age will stay with us right up into our adult life.....and who knows, some of us might be even scarred by it, which isn't nescessarily a good thing. Imagine, being jilted by your first crush and fast forward 10 odd years later....we find ourselves in our 20s and still single, not coz we're not atractive enough but because we're too afraid to give love a chance.
I also know that these events are there to help us grow up , making us stronger as adults.....but is there any way to make these life lessons not as harsh? Come on, we only live once right?!!
But what really surprised me was how well she has kept all this emotions inside of her, because to the rest of us family members and relatives, she appear to be this sweet, bubbly and caring girl who everyone loves and adore! Is it really the same girl who is feeling bitter towards life and who wished that she did not exist at all in the first place in this world?
Sometimes it pains me to read her blog, because I think I kinda have a distant memory of how traumatic it is to be 13. Teenagehood has just started at that age, and we're all eager and jolly to explore stuffs that us big kids can do that the little ones can't (e.g. hanging out with friends, falling in and out of love and the works). But, these are suppossed to be the best times of our lives.....how did it suddenly appear to be our worst nightmare coming true?!
I wish I had some sort of an answer or solution to this whole scenario, but unfortunately I have no idea why things have to end up that way. One thing i know for sure is that all the events that happened at this age will stay with us right up into our adult life.....and who knows, some of us might be even scarred by it, which isn't nescessarily a good thing. Imagine, being jilted by your first crush and fast forward 10 odd years later....we find ourselves in our 20s and still single, not coz we're not atractive enough but because we're too afraid to give love a chance.
I also know that these events are there to help us grow up , making us stronger as adults.....but is there any way to make these life lessons not as harsh? Come on, we only live once right?!!
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