This funny feeling makes me do crazy things
June 18th 2007 09:14
Gulp…if I could rewind back to those times, I may consider erasing a few memory slots! So what have I done?
Memory (1)…
Brady…charming, athletic and nice…ooops, I meant 'WAS' nice. We hit it off with our love for gadgets and seemed to be on the same wavelength on a number of things. Now he was also twice divorced and towing four kids less than 5 years of age. Ok, that should’ve set-off the alarm bells…but perhaps I was afflicted with temporary loss of hearing.
So, Brady suggested a relationship where we were free to see other people. I thought ok…perhaps this is what modern dating is. It went on for a couple of weeks, until he decided that it was not working – I thought oh joy! Does this mean he wants us to only see each other? Nope…Brady thought it was best we stopped seeing each other, as he needed to sort out matters with the ex-es (and four kids!). Fine…I understand. A week later I heard he was seeing Adele…and he was really in love! Good luck Adele…!
Memory (2)…
Matt was sweet, nice and oh so young! He was about eight years younger than me, was a policeman in the UK and was sharing a house with five others. Me – had my own pad and eight years older than him. Ok, nothing quite wrong with the picture until I decided (at Matt’s suggestion) that perhaps it’ll be cool to go live in the UK for a few years.
Ok got down to the paperwork for the visa, etc. All of a sudden I stopped hearing from Matt! What has happened to the big plans of getting a place together, *playing house*, etc. I don’t know…but perhaps Matt needed a few years to grow up before *playing house*…
Memory (3)…
An avid scuba-diver, I seize any opportunity to steal away to the deep blue…and I did to a lovely island in the South China Sea. I was there on my own and so was Antonio. Naturally, we both hit it off (for being lovers of the ocean). Antonio was hot…with a nicely chiselled face and a strong body, and of course it was easy to be drawn to him – what a package…he’s as mad about scuba-diving as I am!
Having said that, I am not at all a fan of night-dives – there is just something about going into the ocean in darkness and coming out in darkness – but of course when Antonio suggested we do a night dive, I was all for it!
So off we went…plunged into the darkness of the ocean, me somewhat hyperventilating. Clinging to his arm – what a good excuse! – we dived for about 30 minutes, all this time I felt I was about to have a heart-attack! I had no recollection of what cool night sea creatures we saw; all I remembered was the darkness, the COLD water and the nagging thought of ‘what if I dropped my torch!’ When we got back to shore – under the lights – we saw Antonio’s arm bruised from me digging into it during the dive…! Ok…not so cool, but he forgave me – phew!
So this funny feeling, which I think should be appropriately call ‘infatuation’, has left me with a few crazy memories – I plead temporary insanity on those occasions…! I don’t exactly regret any of it, and not all of them were all bad, but I do somehow feel a few of those memories shouldn’t be in my memory bank. Then again, perhaps it is those experiences that will help to shape my future experiences…
Has (it) love/infatuation left with you with a few battle-scars? Has it also left you with warm fuzzy feelings that remind you to continue experiencing this crazy thing called love ... infatuation?
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Comment by katyzzz
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Something real doesn't happen in all those strange situations.
Look for someone dull but reliable and going at least somewhere in the world other than his own selfish pursuits.
Excitement leads nowhere and don't those guys know it.
Emulate Mum and Dad, sounds pretty dull but it just may last. I often think the 'boy next door' is the way to go. At least you know something about him.
I sound pretty dull too, don't I? But propinquity and human nature do wonders. Love soon flows.
katyzzz...always remember the essential differences between males/females.
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Good Post.
Comment by Lara M
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I think sometimes we get swept away by the charm, and u are so correct that it was always for "his own selfish pursuits."
A close friend of mine said this: I've learnt to not be so in the moment...but to stop and think 'maybe too good to be true...' Then again I don't want to be too cynical...
I guess like u said "we've to remember the essential differences between males/females."
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Funny!!! LOVE how you put that. Yeah, charming can make us loose our senses can't it!!!
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Comment by Always Eighteen
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Great post.
It makes me crazy too!
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